Finding the meaning
I know that I've been struggling
the past few months.
Minus the painting I made my family,
I haven't painted or created much of anything.
Now I find myself questioning all of this.
I ALWAYS get excited about something,
immerse myself in it, and then it just tapers off.
I was so happy when months passed
and I was still excited and happy
to be creating "art."
I found inspiration in blogs, nature, books.
I wanted to learn more, expand my wings.
I even thought maybe one day I would find myself
Maybe this is where I wanted to carve a niche for my life.
A tiny, tiny light let in a dark tunnel.
Now I am afraid it was all silly.
A game I was telling myself.
I am average, always have been.
I am not doing anything exceptional, or anything that matters.
What to do?